I can see that you are struggling... Well, I can see why. That poor thing in between your legs is no longer good for anything... It might be too ugly, small, thing or maybe you have issues with premature ejaculation OR it is not hard at all anymore... Just pick one and you feel this deep sadness about your penis... But imagine if we would get rid of it, you would be much much better! That ugly thing would not remind you of your failure every single day! Would ease your sexual desires, a penectomy session would make that nasty worthless thing disappear! Order a cage and put it on! You will condition yourself to live without your cock! This is the first step and I am here to give you support and comfort! What a good person I am!